Breaking Free
Hello my name is Melina and I need a chance to break free and show who I am. I just don't know how to get there myself. I keep asking if there is something I could do to help me find myself again like I did in the old days. For some weird reason my head is stuck in the past and it won't allow me to move forward and it makes me really upset that their is nothing anyone could do expect for myself of course. I really wish there was someone that help me in the right direction to guide me in the way that I need to be. I mean don't people have jobs to help people stop having this feeling I am really feel like their is something wrong with me. I can't be normal for more than 5 seconds because one second I want too have fun, and then there is that one person that haves to mess everything up for me but they don't apologize for it. They act like they don't care and they keep going on about there lives because they don't see the hurt they cause on people. Like do see what you do to these people that feel like this and every doctor just wants to throw medicine in your face like that automatically gonna fix things. But, they don't see what actually goes on so they just give you the medicine and they send you in your way like what is that going too fix nothing works unless you remove that one person out of your life, and I don't have that option because I am just a "kid" as people wanna call me. But what I don't understand is what kid has to go through this? That is the big part I don't understand is that they want us to fix this our-self but don't tell us how. Like say you just got a job how are you supposed to do the job but you didn't get the proper instructions. Your gonna mess up right well I'm tired of messing up it's time for me to take a stand in my own life and say enough is enough. I am at the point where I just gonna throw in the white flag and let whatever happens to me. I can't take it much longer I came to a point in my life where they are never gonna see me again and see how that works for me because obsessively they don't give too s***ts about me or my feelings.
